Champion of Whatever.

A phenomenon that a number of people have noted while in deep depression is the sense of being accompanied by a second self — a wraithlike observer who, not sharing the dementia of his double, is able to watch with dispassionate curiosity as his companion struggles against the oncoming disaster, or decides to embrace it. There is a theatrical quality about all this, and during the next several days, as I went about stolidly preparing for extinction, I couldn’t shake off a sense of melodrama — a melodrama in which I, the victim-to-be of self-murder, was both the solitary actor and lone member of the audience.

—William Styron, Darkness Visible: A Memoir of Madness (via rabbitinthemoon)

nprmusic:

Fifteen years after its release, American Football's emo mixtape staple, “Never Meant,” finally gets its own video with a love story that captures Mike Kinsella's sweetly sung sigh, “We were falling out of love.”

Watch it here and on All Songs TV

So nostalgic I want to barf.